spectacle.
i dont know if i want to identify myself as a “lesbian”. i know i like women. i am very sure of this. but im fuzzy as to whether or not i want to be “that lesbian”. i guess there isn’t a way for a woman to love other women, have no desire for a man, and not be a lesbian. looking back on my childhood, i’ve always been that lesbian. being teased in the second grade for thinking another girl was pretty. never having crushes on boys, when all my friends talked of nothing else. but being legitimately mistaken for a boy has made me rethink how apparent i want to make my sexuality. its something that is mine, it belongs to no one else. but it is who i am, and i am not going to hide it. this is a predicament. i’ll find it.
